Monday, July 8, 2013

CONCERNS OF CATHOLICS

I endeavour to get my thoughts and feelings about my religion, where I belong and where I am heading into perspective. This is where I decided to start – with a part of what has concerned me back during 2011.

This writing is a reflection on articles and letters in The Southern Cross, a South African Catholic Weekly.


A thread of correspondence started with Cate Bompas’ letter in February complaining that the Tridentine Mass was seemingly, in some parishes, replacing the order of the Mass instituted by the second Vatican Council.*


In this letter she stated that the older liturgy was: “theologically and pastorally deficient and out of touch with the spiritual needs of contemporary Catholics.


A priest of the Society of Pius X (Lefebvrist movement presently in schism with the Roman Catholic Church) rebutted this statement categorically. His viewpoint was that this Tridentine Mass has “sanctified” souls for centuries. This letter from Fr Anthony Esposito, Durban was published in March. He cleverly brings the same statement of Cate’s into the conclusion of this rebuttal by applying it to the New Order of the Mass which was instituted in 1969 after the Council*.


My personal opinion is that both letters contain elements of truth, especially considering the very recently imposed changes which have resulted in a heavily Latinised English being used in the liturgy.


In May, John Lee responded to Fr. Anthony under the heading “Defining Dogma”. He points out that the ‘old Mass underwent various modifications during several pontificates, up to and including Pope John XXIII – who called for the Council*. He is therefore emphasizing that the order of the Mass changed and developed over hundreds of years {and needs to continually be changed and updated!}. His conclusion: “We have people (meaning adherents of Pius X society) who are determined to live on in the religious thought and practice of the 19th century. The old Mass is the symbol of their refusal to think and act along with the universal church.”


John Lee’s view that of all the Councils in the history of the Church, the second Vatican Council was the most all-inclusive, I heartily agree with. At the same time I am in agreement with the principle that it was never the intention of that Council* to ‘ban’ the Tridentine Mass altogether.


Kerry Swift (June) responds to John Lee’s statement about ‘We have people…’ by first referring to an article headed “New Vatican norms insist on ‘generous approval’ of the old Mass”. Mr Swift – appears to assume that John Lee is not giving ‘generous approval’ but condemning – whereas John Lee is saying the people (Lefvebrists) are stuck in 19th century mode and not moving with the thinking of the Council Fathers**.


So his rhetorical question (in short) about whom we should believe – the Vatican or Mr Lee is ill-founded. This is because, furthermore, John Lee’s opinion is not one of being anti ‘old Mass or Tridentine liturgy’ but of pointing to those who use it to condemn the New Order and in so doing break with the teaching authority of the Church.



The whole John Thavis article referred to below can be found here Click 

Published: 29.06 to 5.07 issue:


Universal Church: whom to believe (June 15)


Kerry Swift poses a rhetorical question but I am wondering why it was asked in the first instance.


Perhaps John Lee (May 25) was referring to the same people that the pope in his “Summorum Pontificum” refers to.


Kerry also refers to this article by John Thavis and published in the same issue. Accordingly we are informed that our Pope refers to those that may not exist “in a stable manner”. In other words, John Lee is probably referring to those who have ‘unstable’ reasons for wanting to celebrate Mass in the Tridentine rite.


For me the whole article by John Thavis is a minefield of potential small explosions that could disrupt anyone’s belief system in this day and age! For a primary example, consider the statement in the article on the new instructions regarding the Tridentine Mass issue by Ecclesia Dei: “the faithful who ask for celebration of the Tridentine rite must not belong to or support groups that contest the Pope or the validity of the Mass and sacraments… in the ordinary [vernacular] form…”


Now how can these people be referred to by the Pope himself as ‘the faithful’ while contesting the Pope and/or any teaching on what is valid or invalid?


It is mind boggling when one considers that a movement like We are Church SA, who want to address the other half of the message contained in the Vatican II constitution Gaudium et Spes (being ‘the fears and anxieties’ of all the faithful) are considered by some in the hierarchy to be “going against the teaching authority of the Church”.


Yes, whom shall we believe?


* Second Vatican Council – called by John XXIII in 1962


** Bishops attending numbered 2,500 – more representative of the whole church than at any other council.









Another thread that I was interested in was one that began with an article published in March “Jesus commanded our conversion to justice”. {I hoped, of course that the teaching authority of the Church was at last seeing the need for their own ‘Metanoia’ but it was, of course, referring to the people in the pews}.


This was overall an impassioned plea by Bishop Barry Wood+ for social and economic justice and in closing he asked: “How do we awaken the spiritual energy to confront the issues that affect the poor, the unemployed, the destitute?” His final rhetorical question being “Are we fiddling while our Rome – South Africa – is burning?”


In April Brian Robertson wrote under the banner of We Are all Church South Africa (WACSA) “Fiddling while Rome burns”, saying that Bishop Wood hits the nail on the head. He also makes a strong point about Catholics being self-absorbed with being saints and getting to heaven. Following on from this he also notes the absence of Catholics staging marches and vigils for the thousands of vulnerable women, children, refugees and others who are being abused, violated and murdered.


Brian answers Bishop Wood’s question about ‘ how do we awaken spiritual energy…’ with: ‘by releasing Catholics from the bonds of guilt and of fear of damnation, and by encouraging us to listen to our inner voices and individual consciences.


He maintains that only when we experience the fullness of God’s love will we respond with “energy” to the Spirit… to love…”


To my mind a very big nail being hit on the head.


The argument for the thousands of vulnerable ones reminds me of YHWH’s plea, running through the Hebrew scriptures: to take care of, be primarily concerned about God’s anawim – not wanting sacrifice but just actions. [Primarily doing the will of God].


Bishop Wood also makes a point for the most vulnerable and quotes: “the quality of our faith is measured by the justice found in our society”.


Perhaps the flaw in Bishop Wood’s article is in the emphasis on Paul’s conversion, using this to emphasize that the Church calls us to a similar conversion of mind, heart and being; calls us to be aware of the signs of the times…; calls us to work for economic justice and do away with the huge gap between rich and poor. If the Church calls… it must lead by example. In the minds of many Catholics like me it does not practice this itself. Just one example is the new Chancery being built in Johannesburg at a cost of R30 million.


On the 20th April, a letter from Dr John Straughan, Cape Town, infers that Brian Robertson has been overtaken by relativism because of his answer to Bishop Wood. Dr Straughan, despite injunctions clearly made in the Gospels about not judging, judges the ‘conscience’ of Mr Robertson as ‘unguided’. He makes the ridiculous statement that the Church ‘guides’ our consciences – forgetting that the only role the church can have is in assisting and encouraging us to form our conscience on the basis of what Jesus said and did. He also forgets that the Spirit is given to all baptised who believe in Christ. Apart from the fact, attested to by the Fathers of Vatican II, that we are all church – the People of God together are Church!


Dr Straughan himself is dangerously adrift. Even Jesus did not ‘judge’ or condemn the woman caught in adultery, but Dr Straughan sets himself on the throne of god – with a definite small g!


We are all Church (WAACSA) is not informing anyone but listening, open to hearing concerns about finding a better way of being Church, both C and ‘c’.


Did Jesus come to die for the rehabilitation of the guilty person? If Dr. Straughan maintains this it has to be the beginning of heresy. God gave us the liberty (free will) and the gift of a conscience. NO ONE achieves a conscience free from error. The very fact of the gift of free will gives the lie to the belief that only God ‘guides’ and informs our conscience. The paragraph beginning: Ït is God’s energy… is just another long winded way of saying exactly what Professor Robinson is saying.


It is passing the buck to exhort Professor Roberston’s expertise to provoke action. What is blocking the energy (Holy Spirit) in the writer himself?


My letter was published (1-8.06) as follows:


ALL WHO ARE ON THE SIDE OF TRUTH


Dr. John Straughan (Which Church?’’ April 20) seems to be confused about the work and whereabouts of the Holy Spirit in the Church (both capital and small c). Thus I cannot find his “advice” credible.


At this so very holy time of year and having absorbed again all that the Christ actually did and said during this time, I would offer Dr Straughan some of the words Jesus spoke to Pilate when agreeing that he is a king: “I was born for this… to bear witness to the truth and all who are on the side of truth listen to my voice.”


Please note that Jesus had by then established his “church” (small c) AND he said ‘Listen to my voice’.


The church was to be the servant of the servants of God. Clearly the Holy Spirit is not confined to church with a capital C!


Dr. Straughan correctly states that the Church guides us with the Holy Spirit, but according to Jesus the primary guidance is ‘the voice of Christ’ in the minds and hearts of all the faithful. Is this not why we have the doctrine of primacy of conscience?


It is a waste of time trying to put down a fellow professional Catholic by inferring with the statement: “liberation of the conscience from Godly guidance”!


No one with Jesus in mind and heart is going to listen to such a foolish statement!


END of letter


Note that I have since changed my mind about the statement I made in purple above. It may be semantics but I would now rather have written …is not correct about the Church’s guidance of conscience. The Church can only inform our conscience, and remember Jesus is saying that the primary guidance is …


The only other personal involvement with The Southern Cross during 2011 was a response to a letter published in February from Aideen Gonlag.


She asks for a clear response from We are all Church (WAACSA) as to our stand on two issues: marriage and abortion.


Here below, I copy my response but I would like to remember her as seeing WACSA as “concerned at the slow but steady drift towards Triumphalism”. Her belief is that this would lead us to being ruled: ‘As the gentiles are’(Matt.20:24-48) i.e. by hierarchical dictates which she discerns in certain prelates.


The challenging letter from Aideen Gonlag (9-15.02) refers.

Ms Aideen Gonlag (February 9) asks for clarity from the newly–established born [in SA South Africa] movement “We are Church”, which is affiliated to the international movement IMWAC.


As yet, no spokesperson has been elected. I do not presume to give anyone clarity on where the movement stands on controversial issues. However, I can state clearly and categorically


• we want and work for the will of Christ;
• we are not a movement in opposition to the church’s teaching authority but we want dialogue and inclusion;
• we are all loyal members of the Mystical Body of Christ.


The world may very well be hostile to our faith because of institutional, as well as individual, faults and failings, but we will never be hostile towards the “People of God”.

Asking less than a hundred concerned Catholics for clarity on critical issues such as same sex unions and abortion on demand is like asking for fruit from a sapling.


We are also, I might add, not a local clone of IMWAC.


END of letter



LIFE

Because of our belief in a Creator God, we recognise that the very nature of life is sacred. If it is true that humankind is the crown of creation and indeed that we are the very purpose behind all creation – as the mystics teach – then life is holy, a holy mystery. We cannot know the mind and purpose that God has but the gurus seem to say, if I understand correctly, that evolution will continue until all humankind reaches a level of consciousness that knows everything is one. 

I think we all know when we reach the last span of our lives that the ultimate purpose for life might be mystery but it has to be both sacred and holy. We have faith, we trust God and live in hope, despite all the negatives that befall us and surround us.

The unity that we are evolving towards has already begun. The best examples of this development are probably humankind’s concern for the environment, for social justice and the equality of all human beings. All of life is holy and we are actually at the service of life, first and foremost. So learning compassion is a primary concern to couple with service.

From Richard Rohr in an Online Daily meditation headed DISCERNING OUR COMPLICITY

Cardinal Bernardin, a friend and confidant while I was in Cincinnati, was the first to publicly call for a “consistent ethic of life” in the late 1970s. He made it clear that until the church starts being honest and defending all life from beginning to end, it cannot call itself “pro-life.” Otherwise, the very moral principle falls apart. All policies that needlessly destroy life—abortion, war, capital punishment, euthanasia, and the selfish destruction of the earth and its creatures—are all anti-life and against the fifth commandment, “Thou shalt not kill.”

Kevin Dowling was asked:
 Q: Do you support the provision in the U.S. aid package that promotes abstinence over condom distribution? 

 A: I've taken a strong stand on this, and I've faced criticism from conservatives and Catholic church officials. I've worked with these poor, vulnerable women who are discriminated against in every way. They have very little control over their lives or their bodies in the male-dominated African culture. Many women are forced into prostitution as the only way to get money to buy food to keep their children from starving. They are vulnerable women who need male condoms and female condoms, and whatever protection we can give them to prevent the spread of HIV. Their lives are sacred. To withhold condoms is immoral in my mind. We're not talking about simply a contraceptive. Given the situation, a condom stops the transmission of death for these poor women.

Monday, September 26, 2011

Reflections on 2011 in The Southern Cross

Now I am endeavouring to get my thoughts and feelings about my religion, where I belong and where I am heading, into perspective. This is where I decided to start – with a portion of what has concerned me during 2011.



This writing is a reflection on articles and letters in The Southern Cross, a South African Catholic Weekly.


A thread of correspondence started with Cate Bompas’ letter in February complaining that the Tridentine Mass was seemingly, in some parishes, replacing the order of the Mass instituted by the second Vatican Council.*


In this letter she stated that the older liturgy was: theologically and pastorally deficient and out of touch with the spiritual needs of contemporary Catholics".


A priest of the Society of Pius X (Lefebvrist movement presently in schism with the Roman Catholic Church) rebutted this statement categorically. His viewpoint was that this Tridentine Mass has “sanctified” souls for centuries. This letter from Fr Anthony Esposito, Durban was published in March. He cleverly brings the same statement of Cate’s into the conclusion of this rebuttal by applying it to the New Order of the Mass which was instituted in 1969 after the Council*.


My personal opinion is that both letters contain elements of truth, especially considering the very recently imposed changes which have resulted in a heavily Latinised English being used in the liturgy.


In May, John Lee responded to Fr. Anthony under the heading “Defining Dogma”. He points out that the ‘old Mass underwent various modifications during several pontificates, up to and including Pope John XXIII – who called for the Council*. He is therefore emphasizing that the order of the Mass changed and developed over hundreds of years {and needs to continually be changed and updated!}. His conclusion: “We have people (meaning adherents of Pius X society) who are determined to live on in the religious thought and practice of the 19th century. The old Mass is the symbol of their refusal to think and act along with the universal church.”


John Lee’s view that of all the Councils in the history of the Church, the second Vatican Council was the most all-inclusive, I heartily agree with. At the same time I am in agreement with the principle that it was never the intention of that Council* to ‘ban’ the Tridentine Mass altogether.


Kerry Swift (June) responds to John Lee’s statement about ‘We have people…’ by first referring to an article headed “New Vatican norms insist on ‘generous approval’ of the old Mass”. Mr Swift – appears to assume that John Lee is not giving ‘generous approval’ but condemning – whereas John Lee is saying the people (Lefvebrists) are stuck in 19th century mode and not moving with the thinking of the Council Fathers**.


So his rhetorical question (in short) about whom we should believe – the Vatican or Mr Lee is ill-founded. This is because, furthermore, John Lee’s opinion is not one of being anti ‘old Mass or Tridentine liturgy’ but of pointing to those who use it to condemn the New Order and in so doing break with the teaching authority of the Church.


{In my response to Kerry - refer below, the blue is the editor’s addition or alteration and the strikethrough was edited out of the published version}.


The whole John Thavis article referred to below can be found at: http://www.catholicnews.com/data/stories/cns/1101897.htm


Published: 29.06 to 5.07 issue:


Universal Church: whom to believe (June 15)


Kerry Swift poses a rhetorical question but I am wondering why it was asked in the first instance.


Perhaps John Lee (May 25) was referring to the same people that the pope in his “Summorum Pontificum” refers to.


Kerry also refers to this article by John Thavis and published in the same issue. Accordingly we are informed that our Pope refers to those that may not exist “in a stable manner”. In other words, John Lee is probably referring to those who have ‘unstable’ reasons for wanting to celebrate Mass in the Tridentine rite.


For me the whole article by John Thavis is a minefield of potential small explosions that could disrupt anyone’s belief system in this day and age! For a primary example, consider the statement in the article on the new instructions regarding the Tridentine Mass issue by Ecclesia Dei: “the faithful who ask for celebration of the Tridentine rite must not belong to or support groups that contest the Pope or the validity of the Mass and sacraments… in the ordinary [vernacular] form…”


Now how can these people be referred to by the Pope himself as ‘the faithful’ while contesting the Pope and/or any teaching on what is valid or invalid?


It is mind boggling when one considers that a movement like We are Church SA, who want to address the other half of the message contained in the Vatican II constitution Gaudium et Spes (being ‘the fears and anxieties’ of all the faithful) are considered by some in the hierarchy to be “going against the teaching authority of the Church”.


Yes, whom shall we believe?


* Second Vatican Council – called by John XXIII in 1962
** Bishops attending numbered 2,500 – more representative of the whole church than at any other council.



Another thread that I was interested in was one that began with an article published in March “Jesus commanded our conversion to justice”. {I hoped, of course that the teaching authority of the Church was at last seeing the need for their own ‘Metanoia’ but it was, of course, referring to the people in the pews}.


This was overall an impassioned plea by Bishop Barry Wood+ for social and economic justice and in closing he asked: “How do we awaken the spiritual energy to confront the issues that affect the poor, the unemployed, the destitute?” His final rhetorical question being “Are we fiddling while our Rome – South Africa – is burning?”


In April Brian Robertson wrote under the banner of We Are all Church South Africa (WACSA) “Fiddling while Rome burns”, saying that Bishop Wood hits the nail on the head. He also makes a strong point about Catholics being self-absorbed with being saints and getting to heaven. Following on from this he also notes the absence of Catholics staging marches and vigils for the thousands of vulnerable women, children, refugees and others who are being abused, violated and murdered.


Brian answers Bishop Wood’s question about ‘ how do we awaken spiritual energy…’ with: ‘by releasing Catholics from the bonds of guilt and of fear of damnation, and by encouraging us to listen to our inner voices and individual consciences.


He maintains that only when we experience the fullness of God’s love will we respond with “energy” to the Spirit… to love…”


To my mind a very big nail being hit on the head.


The argument for the thousands of vulnerable ones reminds me of YHWH’s plea, running through the Hebrew scriptures – to take care of, be primarily concerned about God’s anawim – not wanting sacrifice but acting justly – doing the will of God!


Bishop Wood also makes a point for such justice which affects the most vulnerable with the quote: “the quality of our faith is measured by the justice found in our society”.


The flaw in Bishop Wood’s article for me is in the emphasis on Paul’s conversion. He uses this to emphasize that the Church calls us to a similar conversion of mind, heart and being; calls us to be aware of the signs of the times…; calls us to work for economic justice and do away with the huge gap between rich and poor.


If the Church calls… it must lead by example. In the minds of many Catholics like me it does not practice fully what it calls for. Just one example is the new Chancery being built (or in the planned stage) in Johannesburg at a cost of R30 million.


On the 20th April, a letter from Dr John Straughan, Cape Town, infers that Brian Robertson has been overtaken by relativism because of his answer to Bishop Wood. Dr Straughan, despite injunctions clearly made in the Gospels about not judging, judges the ‘conscience’ of Professor Robertson as ‘unguided’. He makes the ridiculous statement that the Church ‘guides’ our consciences – forgetting that the only role the church can have is in assisting and encouraging us to form our conscience on the basis of what Jesus said and did. He also forgets that the Spirit is given to all baptised who believe in Christ. Apart from the fact, attested to by the Fathers of Vatican II, that we are all church – the People of God together are Church!


Dr Straughan himself is dangerously adrift. Even Jesus did not ‘judge’ or condemn the woman caught in adultery, but Dr Straughan sets himself on the throne of god – with a definite small g!


We are all Church (WACSA) is not informing anyone but listening, open to hearing concerns about finding a better way of being Church with both uppercase C and ‘c’.


Did Jesus come to die for the rehabilitation of the guilty person? If Dr. Straughan maintains this, it has to be the beginning of heresy. God gave us the liberty (free will) and the gift of a conscience. NO ONE achieves a conscience free from error. The very fact of the gift of free will gives the lie to the belief that only the church ‘guides’ and informs our conscience. The paragraph beginning: Ït is God’s energy… is just another long-winded way of saying exactly what Professor Robertson is saying.


It is passing the buck to exhort Professor Roberston’s expertise to provoke action. What is blocking the energy (Holy Spirit) in the writer himself?


My letter was published (1-8.06) as follows:


ALL WHO ARE ON THE SIDE OF TRUTH


Dr. John Straughan (Which Church?’’ April 20) seems to be confused about the work and whereabouts of the Holy Spirit in the Church (both capital and small c). Thus I cannot find his “advice” credible.


At this so very holy time of year and having absorbed again all that the Christ actually did and said during this time, I would offer Dr Straughan some of the words Jesus spoke to Pilate when agreeing that he is a king: “I was born for this… to bear witness to the truth and all who are on the side of truth listen to my voice.”


Please note that Jesus had by then established his “church” (small c) AND he said ‘Listen to my voice’.


The church was to be the servant of the servants of God. Clearly the Holy Spirit is not confined to church with a capital C!


Dr. Straughan correctly states that the Church guides us with the Holy Spirit, but according to Jesus the primary guidance is ‘the voice of Christ’ in the minds and hearts of all the faithful. Is this not why we have the doctrine of primacy of conscience?


It is a waste of time trying to put down a fellow professional Catholic by inferring with the statement: “liberation of the conscience from Godly guidance”!


No one with Jesus in mind and heart is going to listen to such a foolish statement!


END of letter


Note that I have since changed my mind about the statement I made above (highlighted in blue). It may be semantics but I would now rather have written …is not correct about the Church’s guidance of conscience. The Church can only inform our conscience, and remember Jesus is saying that the primary guidance is … "Listen to my voice".




The only other personal involvement with The Southern Cross during 2011 was a response to a letter published in February.

Ms Aideen Gonlag (February 9) asks for clarity from the newly–established born [in SA South Africa] movement “We are Church”, which is affiliated to the international movement IMWAC.


She asks for a clear response from We are all Church (WACSA) as to our stand on two issues: marriage and abortion.

Here below, I copy my response but I would like to remember her as seeing WACSA as “concerned at the slow but steady drift towards Triumphalism”. Her belief is that this would lead us to being ruled: ‘As the gentiles are’(Matt.20:24-48) i.e. by hierarchical dictates which she discerns in certain prelates.

As yet, no spokesperson has been elected. I do not presume to give anyone clarity on where the movement stands on controversial issues. However, I can state clearly and categorically

• we want and work for the will of Christ;
• we are not a movement in opposition to the church’s teaching authority but we want dialogue and inclusion;
• we are all loyal members of the Mystical Body of Christ.

The world may very well be hostile to our faith because of institutional, as well as individual, faults and failings, but we will never be hostile towards the “People of God”.

Asking less than a hundred concerned Catholics for clarity on critical issues such as same sex unions and abortion on demand is like asking for fruit from a sapling.

We are also, I might add, not a local clone of IMWAC.




Tuesday, April 5, 2011

FISHING FOR CATHOLICS WHO ARE AWARE!

If anyone has been wondering what I have been up to the past several months, I have been fishing.

Fish



Fish: "Add a touch of nature to your page with these hungry little fish. Watch them as they follow your mouse hoping you will feed them by clicking the surface of the water."

Saturday, July 3, 2010

NEW SEEDS OF CONTEMPLATION

The book of this title is by Thomas Merton and the chapter entitled Renunciation has taught me the difference between detachment and the really hard stuff of renunciation and why spiritual JOY depends on both!

Once upon a time I went on a semi-directed spiritual retreat entitled "Back to Basics" directed by Fr. Bernard Albers OMI. He had remarked at my seeming inability to stay still! We maintain silence for eight days so I knew he meant that I was unable to maintain an interior silence of some sort. I have struggled to understand this, thinking at the time that being wrapped up in my "feelings" for someone in close proximity, that I could not fully grasp any real meaning. I certainly had no inkling as to how I should proceed. From time to time, since then, I have thought that I have a better understanding.

It has now become much clearer since reading about Renunciation. In reading the book, now at Chapter 35, with four to go, I have several times felt uncomfortable, thinking that Merton is being quite harsh in his estimation of himself and others, of human nature as a whole. As with most books of this genre, one needs to take it in, so to speak, in small doses. There are only 297 pages, medium print, so the chapters are thankfully not lengthy. They are still sometimes tough, 'hard going' for those not willing to make the interior journey.

Several times I put this impact of Merton's philosophy on me down to being a result of his "immature" or early days in a monastery. But his introduction to this, the 2nd edition published more than ten years after completion of the first manuscript explains this away. It is not intended as a "How to become a contemplative" manual {an impossibility for one person to try to teach another}, nor, according to Merton, is it meant for religious people.

We know that the Christ's Way is not the easy way! Merton says "The way to contemplation is an obscurity..." and he goes on to paint a picture of those chosen by Jesus being conspicuous "only by their disregard for the ...network of devotions and ceremonial practices and moral gymnastics of the professional holy."

If I take Merton's statement "It is not filth and hunger that makes saints, nor even poverty itself, but love of poverty and love of the poor" to be a great truth then I realise that Jesus' vision of being a contemplative was to teach common workmen [and all at the bottom of the social pile, including women] how to love poverty and love the poor in spirit. This personal picture helps my understanding of not only the famous Sermon on the Mount but of what "Church" should be in reality.

Merton goes on to give various examples of the difference between what is mere outward showings of piety and the truly contemplative mind/holy person.

Then he states "The issue on which all sanctity depends is renunciation, detachment, self-denial." This is where clarity on Fr. Bernard's direction starts to emerge. I paraphrase my understanding: One can give up all one's deliberate/conscious faults and actions by a planned strategy of resolutions and penances – not easy, but possible! Merton: "But the crucial problem of perfection and interior purity is in the renunciation and uprooting of all our unconscious attachments to created things and to our own will and desires. …When it comes to fighting the deep and unconscious habits of attachment which we can hardly …recognise… {all our resolutions and plans may be ineffective…]

"In getting the best of our secret attachments – [that] we cannot see because they are principles of spiritual blindness – our own initiative is almost always useless. This is the time to enter the darkness in which we are naked and helpless and alone."

Who wants to go there? No, Fr Bernard, that is why I would rather read three books simultaneously, certainly never be in any place without one, be busy at something, mostly on my computer, never able to just sit alone and "contemplate" unless it is my set aside time each day for such activity. I do all this despite the fact my Soul calls me to Contemplate, feel the pain, live with it and through it…

But Merton tells me: "This is the night which empties us and makes us pure". And: "So keep still and let [God] do some work."

Friday, June 25, 2010

TRIBUTE TO PETER TIMOTHY Mc SHARRY


Peter was born in 1948 when I was 7 (and a bit) years old. He was the youngest of five children and we derided him for being 'Mommy's baby'. For most of my life, I had this attitude towards him and I suppose he was somewhat of a lonely child who was not welcome in our 'space'. I have come to deeply regret this very arrogant and cavalier attitude to "my boet".

However, when he was in his early 50s, I was somehow drawn by the grace of God or whatever prompts us to look inward, to look at this attitude that I carried about my brother. It must have been an experience of unconditional love which pushed me to think about how I felt about this human being, comparing my attitude to the Christ's dictum to love others as you love yourself. I reflected on this and made a commitment to at least try to listen to him. Almost imperceptibly our relationship changed. In retrospect it is quite apparent that he sensed a new attitude - my trying to understand - and in his most purely innocent psyche, he interpreted it as a caring kind of love. Our whole relationship changed dramatically over the next year. 

It is for me a classic example of "giving is for the Giver far more rewarding than receiving"!

Peter was diagnosed at about age 40 as a late onset schizophrenic. He was boarded from his job and came to live (at the persuasion of my younger sister, Maureen) in Durban where we both resided. For more than ten years, I felt he was just a huge pain that I had to put up with. Oh, God, I thank you for your Mercy and Grace. 

It was mostly very difficult to converse with him; he was also quite stubborn and one could only push him so far and no more. Nevertheless, I am so grateful I made an effort to change my attitude and LISTEN. It became easier and easier not to get uptight with him. He had always been on the fringe of My Life but now I began to be a part of his, more and more. He knew that he need only contact me no matter how small the favour. No, I was not suddenly the perfect older sister, but I CARED!

He still irritated me, his chain smoking, but he could carry on regardless as long as he did not smoke in my car or my home. He happily conceded this and our outings together would always be where he could smoke and I (and anyone else) would not be encroached upon. I came also to worry about his obsessions with his medication. He became more and more aggressive about doctors not knowing and not prescribing the right medication. I soon got on top of this by realising that he was not taking his medication on a regular basis. Without going into all the details, the place of residence was a Municipal home for men with 'disabilities' and the rules kept him from straying too far off track. I am grateful for this.

I do not want to go into his quite quick deterioration from being quite active, out and about, to bouts of needing to be hospitalized. Ultimately, my only regret is that he died alone in Addington Hospital on 4th May 2008. The death certificate reads from Natural Causes but the doctor who signed the death certificate said that he had cancer. My response to her was – in all this time of his illness that is the first time anyone has said 'cancer'. But one is so distraught at such a time that one cannot really bring any rational questions to mind!

All I know is that I would never have gone away for the weekend if I had known. My only comfort is the new relationship we had. He "knew" that I loved him and cared. I still care and that is why I have spent hours reading all his little 'dairies' and finding a 'boet' that I understood so little but know now, at the core of my being, that he was somehow untainted, unobtrusively generous, kind, forgiving. He held no grudges. More than that he gave to all who asked and then some but especially if they were at the bottom of the pile!

I will be proud for him to meet me, and welcome me, when I pass from this life to the next.

The following are excerpts of quotes and poetry that caught his heart. They were all written in little pint sized notebooks and it has been such an eye opener to the questing soul of my brother, Peter. I have tried to make sense of them by finding the source and, where necessary, copied the whole poem or quote. The colour purple is what I chose to mark the words that he actual painstaking wrote down in his 'dairies'. Truly it makes my heart so proud to have known him – although I knew so little!

{The only way to upload my pdf. file with the quotes it via the link: http://www.scribd.com/rgravenor.  At the bottom of the page is a zoom facility. The document is not perfect and I will practice getting it into shape}